Suicide.
What’s suicide? How does this work?
Several people will never understand how it feels to be locked up in your head, tortured by angry demons, who rages and rages at you. You perceive only the bad. What’s your future like? Is there a future for you?
Wait. . .
Aren’t we all going to die anyway? Whether I die now, abi I die later. All die na die. What’s the essence of being alive? What’s the need to live? What’s life actually about?
Why isn’t there a manual for this bullshit we call living? Will it get better for me? Can I peek a little at my future and know if it is worth the wait?
Oh, god! I understand it. I have been there. I watch, read comments and status, listen to people make unruly remarks about suicidial people and those who crossed over because they are unable to bore the heat in the kitchen. Comments and posts so dangerous, they will make a suicidal person go ahead with their intentions. People aren’t kind☹️.
A friend once told me, you just have to think about positive things. Write down 5 things you are grateful for. Oh it is that easy? I can scramble 5 things about the day and feel happy? Is it so easy for me to just to write even ONE thing I am grateful for?
A friend once posted a video mimicking how motivational speakers and society talk. Few of them stated, are you depressed? Don’t be depressed. Are you sad? Be happy!
Oh how easy it is for those who had never experience suicidal thoughts before.
What they don’t understand is;
Suicide makes you not see anything positive in your life. There will be nothing good about you to you. It is just a dark fog. Shadows everywhere. You raise your hands and voice for help, but you are drowned by doubt. The only light is outside. The relief of dead.
Mental health issues is REAL. You are in luck, if you had never suffered from any before. However, I beg you, please be kind.
People who post about wanting to commit suicide aren’t seeking attention.
A boy posted about committing suicide in Rivers State. Suddenly everybody became bothered, lol😾. “Why didn’t he reach out to me?” “We both were laughing and joking throughout the night.” “He should have opened up.”
“If you have suicide. Speak up!” It is easy to say. Why should they speak up? Will you understand their predicament? How safe have you made yourself for those depressed and suicidal people to lean on. To share? No, instead you put hot waters on them. You brush them off with silly motivational talks, after all everybody get problem.
Therapy. Kind words. More kind words. Can help a suicidial person. Giving a little of your time. Offering kind words and providing a safe haven can help a suicidal person.
When we make helping our fellow humans our business, spreading love and kind words. Showing we actually care. We can make this world a little better. Leave a person, a little happier. What are we living for other than raise a helping hand to those in need, feel the pains of others.
P. S. The happiest of people in the world, are the most depressed people with suicidal thoughts.
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